Enjoying the Moments

So this morning, I wake up and snow is falling and I'm all nice and warm cuddled up with my husband. Now, I am supposed to get up an go to work for a 12 hour shift. But one of the things that I know I will miss if Buff dies, are moments just like these. Moments I have taken for granted even as I enjoyed them. So, I curled in, grabbed my book and read for another hour! I just loved being with Buff until our 7-year -old crawled in bed and said with great enthusiasm, " I'm ready for the day!!". Now, I am not a morning person but Thane was so cute and engaging that in my enjoy the moment moment, I got up and fixed him breakfast and listened to his very imaginative stories. So I got to get ready and go into work very content and with a smile on my face. Cancer sucks but it does cause a re-evaluation of priorities......

Mom-Mom Tells a Story

My sister assures me this story is perfect for my blog so here it is.

My grandson. Thane, is 7 years old.  He is as unique as his name and has an imagination that works full time.  He is very proud that he is imaginative.  Last spring, he came to spend a weekend with Al and me.  I took him to a toy store to buy him a little something and he spotted a castle that cost $60.  I told him that was too much for me to spend and I figured he would forget about it.  Fast forward to December and he came again to spend a night.  He asked me about the castle and wanted to know if would I get it for him for Christmas.  Well, I figured if he remembered it for that long, it must be important to him so I told him sure, I'd get if for him but he had to act  surprised on Christmas morning.  Off we went to the toy store, I parked at a meter and put 4 quarters in and we went and got the castle.  He was one happy little boy that it was still there!!  We returned to the car, and I commented that I had put two too many quarters in the meter. 

 

We went home and he fixed up a thinking room and a practicing room for his Christmas morning performance.  He thought for a while and then came to the practicing room with:  "I can't believe my eyes! I must be dreaming'!  For the next 3 weeks he kept his secret, telling no one, not even his mom, dad, or brothers.  On Christmas, his performance was right-on!  He couldn't  believe his eyes!

When it came time for him to give me a present, he gave me a Yankee candle (he knows I love them) and then gave me another little package.  I opened it up and there were 2 shiny quarters!!!   It will always remain as one of my most favorite gifts!

Happy New Year?

My husband says it best: "My wife an I remain optimistic that with the right combination of treatments, diet, exercise, prayers and love we can stop this thing.  Here's hoping for a healthful new year... 'cause 2010 was a drag!" I usually am sad at the end of a new year but this is one year I am glad to have done! Though I'm not sure why- 2011 looks to be challenging as well. I fluctuate between sheer despair at raising the boys by myself and individual moments of hope that Buff will be around for many years to come. I heard someone at work the other day say that her parents were celebrating their 54th wedding anniversary. I was immediately present to the fact that even though I have a marriage that sustains me, brings me great joy and provides me strength, I'm not going to get to enjoy it to our 54th year together. I'm just hoping to get to our 30th wedding anniversary. It's just not fair!!!

We celebrated the New Year with some friends in our neighborhood- The boys swam in an indoor pool and we all got to see a small fireworks show just after midnight. Being with friends and making some new acquaintances- what a great way to start the New Year.
I started my New Year's cleaning with 1 room- 6 bags of trash later, it looks great. Both Buff & I would like to entertain more and if I can keep this up, maybe we can do it!