The word for the day is: dichotomy. It is defined at dictionary.com as division into two mutually exclusive, opposed, or contradictory groups. So explain to me how one maintains hope and a positive attitude while trying to reconcile that your husband could be dead in a year or 2? One minute I'm crying and overwhelmed by such a profound sense of sadness and the next I'm trying to 'be positive" about treatment options that Buff has to talk about (and talk about and talk about.......) How do we explain to the younger boys about the seriousness of metastatic cancer and still maintain their childhood (supposed to be carefree years)? How do we encourage Torin to go to college and start his life as his dad and family are facing such challenges at home? How do I enjoy the "moments" with Buff and not dwell on the future? Dichotomy!
I know that our family is strong in so many ways but what I wouldn't give to look in the crystal ball and "see" the answers for this test!! It would answer which treatment options to go with, what to do for our boys, and what I need to handle what's coming my way, and get us out if this murky fog we find ourselves in. (yes, you English teachers, I know you're not supposed to end a sentence in a preposition!)
Thanks to my family who have left such reassuring and loving comments. The one thing I have never doubted is that we have all the support and love from the best family in the world!! I promise as a need arises that you can fulfill, we will call.
Don't worry about the English teachers. Informal writing doesn't need to follow the same rules. U r doing gr8 2just b recording ur thoughts down. (have I made my point yet.)
ReplyDeleteI am going to search eBay for your crystal ball...it seems like they have everything else. I wish I had magic words for you or a magic wand to make this all go away.
I guess this is when you have to dig deep and discover what you are made of.
WE already know what Robin is made of. In spite of the fact that this is the greatest challenge of her life, and the questions she asks all deserve an immediate answer, she is up to the task. I know she will figure out a way! We can't pretend that it will be easy for her, but she is made of tough stuff. She will be there for them and we will all be there for her--whatever she needs.
ReplyDeleteI can at least offer you that the rule about ending sentences with prepositions has changed and you CAN do that now. Your writing about this is so good and brave and real, and I love you.
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